What if

What if I told you everything wasn't alright,
That this is a battle that I can not fight?
If I told you I couldn't get through the night,
Would you attempt to be my shinning light?
Do you see this pain, I feel like a lost kite. . .
Depression taking a never-ending flight,
That just keeps soaring out of sight!
Even this fake smile no longer looks bright,
When the knowledge of numbness isn't a fright!
What if I told you I'm tired of people being polite,
and being told trendy is my usual living dead white!
Do you even believe there is a chance to reunite,
Or is this just another pointless subject to write?
Have you noticed that the bracelets are seemingly tight,
And the crazy emotions has hit its all time height?
Do you miss the fire that together we ignite,
Will you please tell me I can set this right?

Which Side?

So much I leave left inside
Others believe that part of me has died
So many thoughts I store away
But still I want to run from everyday
The past should be faded
But my mind is quite shaded
Two lives I try to lead
One tries to constantly plead
Insanity vs. a heart that’s pure
Still the choice remains unsure
The rebel wants her edging side
Though I want to be a future bride
Can I find the middle ground
Before I helplessly drowned?

Dear Bobby

Today hits harder than days before

As birthday wishes light up a page,

Wishes that barely hit the ceiling

Never less than reach up to heaven,

Where you fly with eagles and angels

You lead the band in glorious praise,

Another day you have prefect bliss

Selfish it would be to want you back

While you stay in the arms of Jesus,

But oh I miss your smile and that cape,  

My wish though is to make this amend

The one you will never get to hear

And the roses you will never receive,

To wait another day is too late

 I realize as I wipe the leaves away,

This grave marks the regret left inside

A lesson to learn as bridges burn,

Forgiveness lingers within your soul
Though too far away in heaven’s realm,

I hope you know of my compassion

As we wait to be reunited,

But for now you live in memory

With such cherished love from an old friend

Fallen

Heaven or Hell, she could not decide
 So she was cast out from above
Losing all the gracious love
Love or Power, she could not decide
For she was so blind to the devil's lie
So to both, she had to say goodbye
Scream, Yell, Shout your worst
Show them the hate so dear to Satan
Hypocrite this wrath is your sin
Kick, Stab, Do your worst
Make your voice the only sound
So to this hate, she is bound
In the end, your the reason she hit the ground

Truth is

We avoid dying at any cost
As though it will never take place
But we know it all ends in fire or frost
Still we continue to live in a haste
As if next week will always come
As if one season always leads to another
Though we watch the death of a brother
Indulging in the grief of rum
We stumble around in a deep sleep
Unaware of natures comforting calm
Not caring of a soul that is deep
Losing the praise of every psalm
The truth is you learn to live as you die
When it's not so scary to say good-bye

Mistakes

I've learned the proper good-bye
And how not to cry
I've heard all the lines
I've caused so much to undermine
I do not place blame
For the heart is not a game
One mistake can be too much
Turn this into a pile of dust
Once again I cause the end
Without a chance to amend
Same story with a new face
So far from mercy and grace

Ending

Love begins to fade away
Though it's a bright sunny day
Mascara begins to run
though heartbreak is far from done
Forever wasn't long enough
Though I tried to stay tough
Sisterhood flies away in the wind
Forcing this to be the end

Dear John Love

Bullets fly all around
Bodies begin to hit the ground
No chance for good-bye
No time to sit and cry
Sallow the pity and despair
As your heart begins to tear
For a place to call home
To not be solemnly alone
Miss the love ones far away
Dreaming of them everyday
Their the hope in your eye
The strength to go by and by
All that's left in this place
A friend's love is grace

Fools' Heart



I feel her heart race,
And envy her life's grace.
Her warmth intrigues me
With this innocence I see,
The blood calls me close.
Ignorance is her diagnose:
I smell her lust quit strong,
Hear it in her voice like a song.

A fools heart is most capturing

For you can feel it shattering

As the truth is uncovered.

My Identity is discovered

Right before death does us part.

Poor, Poor fools heart

A Vampire's Winter

Winter wind freezing all
Conforming with pure snow
Killing what's left of fall,
The last of the sun's glow

Scarlet eyes burn threw ice
Glaring through to her heart
Dying love is summer's price
For the sun keeps them apart

Winter's darkness surrounds her
But tonight she remains alone
Listening to a new prey's laughter,
A fools heart listening to the unknown

Hate to Love You

I Hate how each story makes the other a lie
I Hate how I can never tell you good bye
I Hate that you say you love me but than you marry K
I Hate how you make me believe what you say
I Hate when you add fire to my fights
I Hate what happened that night
I Hate it, I really do
But most of all I hate to love you!

*This is a really old poem that never got on here from last summer but goes along with the new one in the post above*

Darkness

There's always a hidden Shadow
And in it is another foe
Darkness can lurk around at noon
So what's to expect with the moon
Evil will hide in every soul
While anger starts to take it's toll
No promise it will be alright
Pray it won't turn into a fight
And the night won't darken pitch black
While hoping there's nothing you lack
This is what life will turn into
Suck there's nothing you can do

Broken Love

Another secret yet to come
Though still I feel like we aren't done
Hidden deception with each word
Everything hanging by a chord
Maybe emotions are too high
Cause this could never be goodbye
Lyrics are never really gone
And neither is the night's new dawn
Fear is just a feeling of life
Though i feel like my back has a knife
Perfect is what's not to come
And I realize that we aren't done

No Shaddows

The stars fade out to the darkest night
Lack of Hope is the cause of no fight
The new moon glistens with poisin black
Hidden red fron the knife in her back
Such aloneness is an empty feel
Such a best friend with a broken deal
Never imagine this type of pain
Being numb is keeping her this sane
Angel is what everyone can sww
But hidden horns are what's meant to be
The shaddows can be what's really true
During the night though, there's no shaddows for you
The stars fade out to the darkest night
The lies reveal cause there is no light