Reality:

Perfection: unattainable.
Death: achievable
Everything Else: Circumstantial.  

Memories

I watch the memories from the scars pour
As I reminisce on what they stand for:

One - For the friend who confesses his Love
Than to our friendship he gives a shove!
Two - To the friend who just wants to screw
Who pretends to care what I go through!
Three - The Innocent one that deems me an addict
Oh, what that friendship did in fact inflict!
Four - Baby sister who abandons me over a boy
Like I'm just some outdated, overused toy!
Five - For the Help "I hope you get through this"
Well my friend, Ignorance can be quite bliss!

The last two Memories hurt more than the eye may see. . .
Six - For the love, I fucked up and lost
These mistakes came at quite a cost
Seven - Dedicated  to my dreams with him
That meet a fate quite grim

These Memories won't fade away
But still I must face another day. . .

What if

What if I told you everything wasn't alright,
That this is a battle that I can not fight?
If I told you I couldn't get through the night,
Would you attempt to be my shinning light?
Do you see this pain, I feel like a lost kite. . .
Depression taking a never-ending flight,
That just keeps soaring out of sight!
Even this fake smile no longer looks bright,
When the knowledge of numbness isn't a fright!
What if I told you I'm tired of people being polite,
and being told trendy is my usual living dead white!
Do you even believe there is a chance to reunite,
Or is this just another pointless subject to write?
Have you noticed that the bracelets are seemingly tight,
And the crazy emotions has hit its all time height?
Do you miss the fire that together we ignite,
Will you please tell me I can set this right?

Tempting

He keeps calling my name
Mocking me like its a game
Than putting me to blame
His promises are misery
Reminding me of my history
Telling me it's just a tiny injury
Leaving corruption in my brain
Surely he won't hit a vein
Have I gone completely insane
He won't leave me tonight
No matter how much I put up a fight
I'll just have wait till daylight

Fallen Angel

Chained to darkness, organizing Armageddon

While wings engulf in the flames of Hades  

Rebellion of a worthless cause

Searching for redemption

Begging for love

Help her

Another Poem

Attempt to write the pain away
Same shit, different damned day
Nothing ever new to say!
There's an aching in my brain
Please tell me I haven't gone insane!
What drug is this running through my vein?
Stupid words have to rhyme,
This is a waste of worthless time
Such nonsense should be a lethal crime!
My twisted actions, so disarray
Trapped in thoughts too mundane
A life stuck in sicking, insane slime

Alone

Poem is not about New Moon

Waves crashing on the rocks
Drowning in the shallow end
Innocent bystanders on the docks
I hope not to offend
By the weakness that holds me
Bound to this fate by despair
No one willing to pay the fee
Selflessness becomes to rare
As i slowly slip away
On this bright and sunny day

Dear John Love

Bullets fly all around
Bodies begin to hit the ground
No chance for good-bye
No time to sit and cry
Sallow the pity and despair
As your heart begins to tear
For a place to call home
To not be solemnly alone
Miss the love ones far away
Dreaming of them everyday
Their the hope in your eye
The strength to go by and by
All that's left in this place
A friend's love is grace

Not ok

Crystals fall from my eyes
Scarlet tears roll down my wrist
Not strong enough for good-byes
My lips still recall being kissed

Your voice sounds numb
And whispers through the wind
Pain beating like a drum
The heart can not mend

Hold tight to the phone
It's the only link to  you
Since I'm mistake prone
And there's nothing left to do

You can't pretend this is ok
While I silently drift away
Please forgive my wrong
Your where I Belong

Writer's Life

Write away the insanity

Or just let it simply be?

Let the pen release pain

For what is there to gain?

The paper is your art

And you can't be apart

Or suicide is to offer

Such lovely a dream walker!

Together as one

The madness is done

The only release

Strains you from peace!

A writer's life

Consist of strife

Falling

Hurry, Faster, Please Come I'm Falling
The world...  it is beginning to blur
My purpose has ran far away
People start to disappear
They say love fades
It's almost over
Catch Me
Please

Worth

Romeo and Juliet
Are on this very stage set
Dying in this last moment
That they believe fate has sent
But could it be a mistake
Three days isn't long to make
A love that is forever
Separate worlds may be better
But their deaths keep this secret
Suicide was the last hit
Could this love be worth it all
Death, suicide, the fall?

Your My Suicide

The light goes out of the flare
Not even leaving a prayer
There is so much left to say
Though you can't be here today
For you have to life your life
Even though mine is of strife
That is no concern of you
Just like the moon isn't blue
The stars can't fade out the night
And you can't be worth the fight
As I sleep my dreams begin
Even here you are the end
The suicide of true love
There is no hope from above

Dream Walker

Here you are on another night
Take my hand like there was no fight
For now the pain will go away
no awful words are there to say
Please drown everything that was wrong
I haven't seen you in so long
Since the last dream you walked upon
You keep me praying from each dawn
Together again we can be
Though this is not reality
I'll settle for a Dream Walker
If that's all that's left to offer
Maybe I won't wake up again
And This dream will never end

(more Dream Walker feelings below)
http://justanothertwistedsoul.blogspot.com/2010/07/dream-walker.html

Runaway

The day is young but hard to bear
Nothing at all is ever fair
Like the midnight sun you can not see
or everything that's "meant to be"
The frailty of every soul
Joins depression to take it's toll
While her arm soaks in blood red tears
Letting go of these so called fears
The ones around see nothing wrong
though she knows she doesn't belong
Love is what is wants to believe
Harm though she doesn't want to see
No one should have to go through this
She wants her friends to have their bliss
She keeps running till far away
And lets the rest enjoy their day

Relief

The moon bleeds red tears for her
stars die in agony too

Midnight aloneness is fate

way to familiar a pain

laying awake from nightmares

Shove things into reality

Survival rate is zero

With a traitors death to bear

Tears fall from her face and arm

Relief is still yet to come

Leaving her in a time of need

Her blood leaves at her worst

as her heart begins to fail

Like the story of her Life

It's never enough to be

The end of her is relief
If such a word is to say

suicide

Sucide

Standing at the gate of hell
Anger turns to pure hatred
Fire burns while people yell
But still cant escape the dred
The ones left above will cry
The fake love will never fade
Sicking her inside
This fate of hell which they paid
With all their ovibous lies
Can't be undone in way
The posion stris but doesn't kill
Agony swells up everyday
The same way you can never deal
Standing at the of hell
You go in as you here the bell

World View

Walking a little bit sideways
While on the wrong side of the road
several weeks flow into days
and every prince is just a toad
though the nothings are a something
cause the world is presived through eyes
of a vocalist that can not sing
and fancy men without a tie
cause suicide is just another way to die