Black Rose

Blacken Rose bleeding crimson
While thunder and lighting begin
Soaking that poor rose in sin
The darkest night will soon pass
Than greener can grow the grass
Reminding her why she is here
Shedding blood, sweat and fear
Rose refuses to fade away
Waiting for a brighter day
Wading in a new start
With a healing heart

Twisted View

Back from Basic...shit didn't work out
My depression really took a toll...
So I'm back for now
Which means you get a view into my Twisted Mind.....

My First Tattoo

Forgive

"The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is an attribute of the strong" -Gandhi
And with that quote, that sums out my feelings towards the guy I've been writing about, I leave my blog for 9weeks (Basic training)

Fit to Forgive

Furry flies fast altering seasons
Frost bite without much reason
Forgiveness unavailable in this wind
For winter and spring begin to blend

Isolated in ice by misplaced blame
Insanely offering something sane
Ice has covered your young soul
I'm trapped taking the ice's toll

Terribly tearing tears form my eye
That's defiantly a frozen spring lie
Time will reveal that you're wrong
Though I have enjoyed Spring all along

Foolish would it be to waste the sunlight
Insane to believe that you are worth a fight
This Twisted Soul will rejoice without you tonight!

Defeted in Love (version 2)

As the bomb flies through the air
My heart still feels despair
For the girl back home
Who left me all alone

All that's left now is smoke
As for my heart by your cruel joke
I guess I wasn't enough
As if this place isn't already tough

Another mission completed
But as for love I am defeated
Time to pack up again
But without you I can not win

***This is the version I wrote for my friend before he put his lines in with it

Defeated in Love

 
As bombs fall from the air
My heart still feels deep despair
For the girl back home
Who left me all alone


My heart is aching
& My back is breaking
I love her so
But she keeps say'n no
  
Got a dangerous life ahead
Hope i don't end up dead
I hope she will see
We was meant to last for eternity
  
I hope she'll forget me
But i doubt she will agree
I try to keep my head held high
But somtimes i just break down & cry


All that's left now is smoldering fires & choking smoke
similar to my  heart after your real cruel joke
Everytime i think of you
I start felling kinda blue


 I guess I wasn't enough
As if this place isn't already tough
Another mission completed
But as for love I am defeated


Time to pack up again
But without you I cannot win


I co-wrote this with a friend is just beginning to write; Stanzas 1, 6-7 are mine

Rose Brier

The edge of desire
Pulsing through a red rose
Deceiving with brier
Continuing it's outward grow

He is the flowing rain
His touch is my supply
As I lose what's sane
Rain falls from the sky

Addiction grows strong
Drowning that pour rose
Ignorantly ignoring the wrong
Because of what is exposed

Flirting with the edge of desire
Forgetting he is a liar

Twenty First Century Insanity

No longer will I wait up for you
For too long has time grew
And showed me my mistakes,
Your daggers and stakes
Freedom runs through the creek
With the pureness I seek.
Barefoot I walk the trail
For blindly I have fell,
Twentieth Century insanity
blends so well with its vanity.
The old Magic is left behind
By this world's small mind.

Pure

The Magically Untouchable awaits,
Down the stream of pure nature
So close to reality,
Yet untouched by insanity
She's there:
Dipping in to the old world
Embraced though by our world
Everything beyond words
Sight or Emotion
But nothing at all,
Except the insanity sinking in!
She is my Fairy
The pureness left inside of me

Runaway

Attempt to write away the  pain
For what else is there to gain?
Inside spikes up the hate
Myself begins to depreciate

Runaway another time
While others remain blind
Kick, Scream, Shout!
while others start to doubt

Place blame where it belongs
Tell me it's not wrong
I can't control insanity
Far away from humanity