Manic Depressive

That manic state is reoccurring,
While numb feelings close the gaps.
The heartbreak is indeed incurring,
As I wait for the collapse . . .
Indecisive on the chance to leave,
While time is caving in upon me.
Do I simply choose to deceive;
Or stop trying to flee?
The answer isn’t so black and white!
Even after all this time,
It’s still quite a fright!