The pen is running low
There's not much left to do
While love begins to fade
Then I wonder Why
Good things can never last
And then I get lucky
All this heart ache is the
Taste of Blood and Chocolate
Another day of rain
Or is all that my tears
Can't say for I'm not sane
But there is not much fear
When you are beside of me
Though now your miles away
I am all I can be
Making it through each day
Though This love is failing
Along with my broken heart
Outside it is hailing
Watch as it falls apart
Love starts to fade away
Leave out the window pane
While there's nothing to say
When freedom is to gain
Storms can't last forever
It has to get better
Again I hear your voice mail
And wonder if I should bail
You lie saying your alright
Wonder if it's worth the fight
Then all I love turns to dust
Everything becomes a fuss
Wonder when it gets better
You believe its forever
Or could always just be a lie
Wonder if you would say bye
If you read what I write
Reality is a bite
Wonder why I hear your voice mail
Another case of writers block
A blank page with thoughts of you
No rhymes show how I feel tonight
Without you here so far away
Again a cause of writers block
A blank page of feelings for you
No rhymes explain the failing heart
When there's always an argument
The stupid case of writers block
A blank page that will stand alone
No rhymes can equal out the pain
Of another day without them
There comes a point in time
When you have to let go
It's all that's left to do
But this time I don't know
Can love conquer it all
When every things a mess?
Can love still hold on
When it's time to confess?
There comes a point in time
When you just can't let go
Cause it's all you have left
But this time I don't know
The story of a girl named Nix
There is something she has to fix
A confession she has to make
He turns her into something fake
Pulling strings towards him everyday
Her true self doesn't get a say
But now Nix is done with this game
Her way, the highway but no pain
The pen runs dry
our last good bye
Gone forever
This ain't better
My tears still fall
I can't stand tall
I still miss you
You it's true
Though I still run
We have to be done
These feelings I write away
So moving on will be done
By the start of a new day
It's time again to have fun
I'm not a stupid Princess
Need no one to save me
Don't want to hear you confess
I'm own my own, Can't you see
I never needed you here
But I will always love you dear
The last grain of sand
Ending note of songs
Don't need an extra hand
he doesn't belong
I will walk ahead
In the shinning sun
While he lays in bed
What is done is done
These writings are a way of life
To make it through each painful night
Without having to use the knife
In this world it's always a fight
The pencil writes down all my pain
It's the very least to keep me sane
Romeo and Juliet
Are on this very stage set
Dying in this last moment
That they believe fate has sent
But could it be a mistake
Three days isn't long to make
A love that is forever
Separate worlds may be better
But their deaths keep this secret
Suicide was the last hit
Could this love be worth it all
Death, suicide, the fall?
What a fool to believe
With all that I can see
When words are all a lie
Why can't I say good bye
Who is she, better than me
Why do I still believe
When she is there for you
With comfort I can't do
What a way to end the day
Who would love me anyway?
The light goes out of the flare
Not even leaving a prayer
There is so much left to say
Though you can't be here today
For you have to life your life
Even though mine is of strife
That is no concern of you
Just like the moon isn't blue
The stars can't fade out the night
And you can't be worth the fight
As I sleep my dreams begin
Even here you are the end
The suicide of true love
There is no hope from above
Here you are on another night
Take my hand like there was no fight
For now the pain will go away
no awful words are there to say
Please drown everything that was wrong
I haven't seen you in so long
Since the last dream you walked upon
You keep me praying from each dawn
Together again we can be
Though this is not reality
I'll settle for a Dream Walker
If that's all that's left to offer
Maybe I won't wake up again
And This dream will never end
(more Dream Walker feelings below)
http://justanothertwistedsoul.blogspot.com/2010/07/dream-walker.html
Admit I love him though
Before twilight he is not alive
Cannibal is what some will say but
Don't be tricked by a play of words
Every night will be lethal
For he lives to feed and murder
Gaining soul and strength he will
Hinder worthless beings
I though am not worthless
Just because love is true
Kiss away the pain of death
Lie to me about what's next
Make me like you are
Never will I be worthless
Others will envy at my sight
Problems will be no more
Questions about you will be
Reveled when I am different
Sadness will be left behind with
Thoughts of past destroyed
Uniformed men will be no match
Victory will live in my blood
Why would I wish any different
Xamine my worthiness tonight
Yonder take me away
Zip the thread of life away tonight
The day is young but hard to bear
Nothing at all is ever fair
Like the midnight sun you can not see
or everything that's "meant to be"
The frailty of every soul
Joins depression to take it's toll
While her arm soaks in blood red tears
Letting go of these so called fears
The ones around see nothing wrong
though she knows she doesn't belong
Love is what is wants to believe
Harm though she doesn't want to see
No one should have to go through this
She wants her friends to have their bliss
She keeps running till far away
And lets the rest enjoy their day
Tonight the world turns upside down
Without so much of a small sound
No promise can even stay true
While there's nothing else left to do
No hope to gain but bear the harm
Don't wait for the blaring alarm
Open the eyes to what's been blind
Don't get stuck with ones left behind
Nothings changed it's all the same
So don't run to make another blame
You saw things from a different eye
And had to say a last Good Bye
Fate won't change for what you call love
While still you find hope from above
Don't hold your breathe for what is right
Reality is quite a bite
There's always a hidden Shadow
And in it is another foe
Darkness can lurk around at noon
So what's to expect with the moon
Evil will hide in every soul
While anger starts to take it's toll
No promise it will be alright
Pray it won't turn into a fight
And the night won't darken pitch black
While hoping there's nothing you lack
This is what life will turn into
Suck there's nothing you can do
Words that should never be said
Thought that should not be in mind
Relation that can't be dead
Though all this i seem to find
Words of hatred cover pain
seemed better that way
Though I can not stand the rain
Feeling different then I say
Thoughts that are too blunt to think
Though there buzzing in my head
Turning into words that sink
Can't take back what is said
Causing relationship to fail
Over mistrust that lead to lie
Don't forget we had it all
So this won't turn into good-bye
True love can conquer this
But let this be our Last Kiss
Another dark unending night
While never giving up a hopeless fight
Love is unstoppable or so we say
Because we know each night turns to day
Or at least we hope it wont rain forever
While we thirve on summer being better
We both believe in love just to survive
And it's our love that makes us feel alive
Even in the night there's light from Fireflies
If stars could love there would be no more good-bye
They could save us all from what we call life
No more pain, suffering or even strife
And then again we know the star can't love
Though we still live from the hope from above
Anger builds up inside of me
Turning into all I can be
Ignorant lies start to burn
But people never seem to learn
Categories seem to bound
So the truth will never be found
Living by words that have control
Turning blind to what's in the soul
Love is love unless the same
Then it's nothing but a game
They say our hearts are in the wrong
and that we will never be belong
The word Different gives them fear
Causing us every single tear
The choice was never ours to choose
The way we are will make us lose
~Bisexuality~
Habits crawling inside of me
Though it's not what's meant to be
Isolated by my own fear
Pushing away ones that are near
My monster has all the control
I wonder if I have a soul
Or anything that's not ripped out
Though i have a serious doubt
The knife glistens with red glitter
Letting go of all the bitter
Time will start to run out tonight
Unless a Hero wants to fight
Anger breeds all this depression you see
Nothing ever what I want it to be
Home being an abandoned forest grave
A hero that doesn't know how to save
Love conquers all that it can consume
But is it the answer or is it doom
Fake smiles hold all the happiness in place
Though there is nothing left to be called grace
With every day turning into the night
A hopeless cause makes me give up the fight
Reuse me from what's crawling in my skin
I really don't want this to be the end
Depression has it's grip on you
And all things you know to be true
Painful words are what set the day
While leaving nothing left to say
A broken heart shatters the soul
Ripping through a massive black hole
Never notice the ones around
The wicked seem to keep you bound
Love is without a thing to do
And isn't sure what's to be true
Trapped blindly by a blacked out moon
Only to wait for the sun's noon
Tied with wires Love does cry
Because the bond is afraid to die
Love hopelessly wants to save you
Though she has no clue what to do
Another secret yet to come
Though still I feel like we aren't done
Hidden deception with each word
Everything hanging by a chord
Maybe emotions are too high
Cause this could never be goodbye
Lyrics are never really gone
And neither is the night's new dawn
Fear is just a feeling of life
Though i feel like my back has a knife
Perfect is what's not to come
And I realize that we aren't done
The darkest night has too much Light
Even without the stars and moon
Conforting pain is just too bright
Cursed to the point of death not soon
The pain has confusion untold
With misery that comes to stay
A broken heart that had been gold
This monster makes them go away
it's Nightmare has all the control
Unknown demonds behind each wall
Stealing every innocent soul
True love will continue to fall
But which monster is yours or mine
Their all the same bringing this pain
Deceving with the words "It's Fine"
Letting everyone think it's sane
But this maddness to have end
Even before it can begin
B
Anger, rage all of those i wish i could be
Anything at allbut this sadness you see
You caused this distruction, this maddness here
I gave you to much without any fear
Unfading scars remind me of the past
And the only thing left to say is why
You say 'I Love You' but wish i would die
Do you feel better when you see me fall
or when you watch me run into the wall?
Every tear makes you that much better
Knowing i was just a rebond off her
Your true colors show here on the ground
Every word you said has a certain bound
Anger, Death all of those I wish I could be
Anything but this depression you see
The stars fade out to the darkest night
Lack of Hope is the cause of no fight
The new moon glistens with poisin black
Hidden red fron the knife in her back
Such aloneness is an empty feel
Such a best friend with a broken deal
Never imagine this type of pain
Being numb is keeping her this sane
Angel is what everyone can sww
But hidden horns are what's meant to be
The shaddows can be what's really true
During the night though, there's no shaddows for you
The stars fade out to the darkest night
The lies reveal cause there is no light
